In Memoriam

The incidence of suicides are quite high in Kerala these days. Kids, youngsters, adults, everyone and anyone. Before I used to belive that there will be that one ounce of life that would want you back in the tomorrows of your loved ones. No matter what, you can hold on to that hope and return to it. But as I am growing old, the rose tinted glasses are fading to nothingness. Now that I think about the people who are giving up on themselves, I understand them. I understand where there desperation is coming from. But try to hold on, because if you don't, no one else will. It's the harsh truth of life. We went wrong when we chased our happiness in the fleeting smiles of the ones around us. When you are content with the smiles of your kith and kin, sometimes you fail to notice the child in you who never found themselves on the receiving end of that kindness. Try to be kind to oneself first, because when death tries to dilapidate the tough but easy going persona you created, that kindness may help you build some courage to hold back and build your walls again. It is not easy to give up and I don't think that whoever did so did it because they wanted the easy way out. The desperation might have blurred the last bit of self love in them. The helplessness might have dried out the kindness in their eyes. The world failed them and the disappointment was too heavy to carry forward. It is easy to say that this too shall pass, but to get past that phase takes immense courage. I hope we all find that courage in us. I hope the world doesn’t push us more into this abyss.