Alive

what is it like to be alive??
you can be physically present... breathe and make your body stay in power ,still you will be deliberately keeping it in hibernation..
this is not the essence of life ..this is more or less like keeping your internet button ON and then being OFFLINE.
being alive means being present at the moment.. being alive is when you are present for yourself..
being alive is when you are present in whole body and soul when your conscience needs you the most ..being alive is loving yourself.. being alive is being yourself.

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